This might sound insane, but in Folkmore, the place I was before now, I could turn into a dragon. But it's not natural for me, obviously. I'm a different kind of monster.
[ Does he explain that? Of course not. ]
Do you breathe fire and all that? When I first heard of dragons, I was told they breathed fire. I haven't seen that yet, though.
[ Folkmore's dragons maybe could; he has no idea. He couldn't as a dragon. ]
No, I...I have control over it. It won't randomly happen or anything.
[ He'll just busy himself stirring something while he talks because this is always a lot to deal with out loud. ]
People from my bloodline can all potentially become titans, but it's not usually reversible. Most titans are mindless man eaters. But there's nine that are different, that can shift back and forth. We have various powers. Mine, the Attack Titan, is a melee fighter.
[ It's more than that but Eren never talks about anything else his titan can do. ]
I have three of the Nine Titans. I can only use two though.
[ None of this is really a secret so he doesn't mind sharing. He has no idea what Rafal will think. But Rafal isn't even human! So maybe this is less weird? ]
Yeah. I guess I am. I thought I'd accepted it but it's been a year since I left, so...
[ Can you undo acceptance? It's not that he doesn't accept it. It's that he remembered how to feelings. ]
It has and it hasn't. A couple people from home lived through that future. The rest of them have no idea. It would hurt them to know, so I'd rather they didn't.
But what happens there could never happen here. It could only happen at home.
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[ rafal greases the tray in the meantime, preparing the oven. ]
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[ He can pay attention though. Grease the tray? Never would have known to do that.
He can read a recipe obviously but this is still better, if you ask him. He can't zone out and burn something, for one. ]
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[ For the first time, he looks actually surprised. Good job on getting a real expression on his face, Rafal! ]
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[ He wonders if any of his is somehow blocked, but so far he's been fine. He'll have to ask. ]
But if you're a dragon, do you...always look like you do now?
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No. I can look like a dragon if I choose to.
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[ Does he explain that? Of course not. ]
Do you breathe fire and all that? When I first heard of dragons, I was told they breathed fire. I haven't seen that yet, though.
[ Folkmore's dragons maybe could; he has no idea. He couldn't as a dragon. ]
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Though obviously, I won't be demonstrating that here.
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[ He has the absolute worst sense of humour. ]
Could you always be a human too or is that, you know. A here thing?
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[ at eren's question, rafal shakes his head. ]
No. It's very common to have a human form.
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[ He considers that. ]
I guess I'm a little opposite. I'm human but I turn into a monster.
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[ surely that's not the proper term for it. ]
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[ He clarifies but only that far. He's bad at doing this out loud; text is easier. ]
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And there is no way to prevent this transformation? Do you have control over it?
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[ He'll just busy himself stirring something while he talks because this is always a lot to deal with out loud. ]
People from my bloodline can all potentially become titans, but it's not usually reversible. Most titans are mindless man eaters. But there's nine that are different, that can shift back and forth. We have various powers. Mine, the Attack Titan, is a melee fighter.
[ It's more than that but Eren never talks about anything else his titan can do. ]
I have three of the Nine Titans. I can only use two though.
[ None of this is really a secret so he doesn't mind sharing. He has no idea what Rafal will think. But Rafal isn't even human! So maybe this is less weird? ]
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So then why are you afraid of it?
Or are you simply afraid of what you will do with all that power?
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[ He's had enough time learning to control it. He's afraid of other things. Maybe it's kind of the same in the end. ]
...I already know what I'll do with it. There's only one way anything at home can end. That's why I don't want to go back there.
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[ that makes. perhaps if rafal knew the cost of his own actions, he would have taken a different path.
or would he? it's hard to say. ]
You don't think it will catch up to you?
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[ Can you undo acceptance? It's not that he doesn't accept it. It's that he remembered how to feelings. ]
It has and it hasn't. A couple people from home lived through that future. The rest of them have no idea. It would hurt them to know, so I'd rather they didn't.
But what happens there could never happen here. It could only happen at home.
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Or perhaps it does because others may learn of it? I suppose that makes sense.