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[nilhilistic]

[ rafal nods as this is all very normal. ]

So then why are you afraid of it?

Or are you simply afraid of what you will do with all that power?

[dreamsofwings]

I'm not afraid of it.

[ He's had enough time learning to control it. He's afraid of other things. Maybe it's kind of the same in the end. ]

...I already know what I'll do with it. There's only one way anything at home can end. That's why I don't want to go back there.

[nilhilistic]

Ah, so you're afraid of your future.

[ that makes. perhaps if rafal knew the cost of his own actions, he would have taken a different path.

or would he? it's hard to say. ]

You don't think it will catch up to you?

[dreamsofwings]

Yeah. I guess I am. I thought I'd accepted it but it's been a year since I left, so...

[ Can you undo acceptance? It's not that he doesn't accept it. It's that he remembered how to feelings. ]

It has and it hasn't. A couple people from home lived through that future. The rest of them have no idea. It would hurt them to know, so I'd rather they didn't.

But what happens there could never happen here. It could only happen at home.

[nilhilistic]

And yet the fear persists.

Or perhaps it does because others may learn of it? I suppose that makes sense.