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I think it's romantic that you made me sound very strong. I hope to be strong for you, not just for myself.

You are strong.

I never thought otherwise.

Really? I've always seen myself as weak... I barely survived growing up due to how frail I was. And no matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to cross the line into being strong.

There is more to strength than power and a healthy body. You taught me that.

...Yeah, that's true! It's just too bad I can't have it both ways.

But I'm getting pretty emotional reading what you think of me.

It's the truth. That's all.

Thank you. I used to be so afraid that I'd be left behind if I admitted how weak my body was.

I won't leave you behind.

[There's a sort of long pause before Alfred replies. Because the inclination is to promise the same thing back... but he can't. He has to think of something else to say. He can't promise to stay when he has so little chance to live much longer.]

That means a lot to me. I have to say, I get lonely really easily.

Edited 2024-03-18 07:07 (UTC)

But you have plenty of friends.

I do! It's separation that's hard. I can't stand much of being alone and quiet. What's better than working out with a buddy, you know?

I wouldn't know. I spent most of my life alone.

I can't imagine being alone that long...

I wouldn't recommend it.

Even with people, I was lonely. I could never show my true face.

That sounds awful for you. I'm glad you show your true face now.

If you ever start to feel lonely again, let me know and I'll come running!

Edited 2024-03-19 15:17 (UTC)

Just like that?

Yes! By horse or on foot, I will dash on over and cheer you up! I'll be the flower that is brought to you in the darkness.

Like a knight in shining armor?

A knight in armor, AND a flower.

How admirable.

It would mean a lot to me to be someone who brings comfort, so I hope you really do call for me whenever you need me.

I'll admit . . . such an idea has never crossed my mind before. I am not used to asking for anything. How could I?

But I will try.

Unless I visit you so often that you never miss me.

That would certainly be ideal.

Perhaps that will get me to change my habits.

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