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In truth, I hadn't thought about it.

[ he does seem a bit abashed. ]

I never — I never celebrated this holiday. I never had anyone.

You haven't? Are we your first lovers? I know life with Sombron was difficult...but I had hoped you would have had more freedom than the rest of us.

what freedom was there? I wasn't even myself.

[ he had been playing a part. even if he did engage in such a thing — and rafal never trusted anyone enough for that — it would never be real. just another lie to gird his armor. for his survival. ]

You are the only ones who have liked me for me.

I'm really sorry. I wanted to know what love was like myself, but pursuing it under Sombron's watchful eyes was impossible.

Any weakness perceived, and he would declare me defective.

[ He would have been most assuredly tossed to the Corrupted so he could be ripped to pieces. ]

None of us deserved that. You have to believe that. Now that I know who you really are, I can say with certainty I like you as is, even if you're a little cranky sometimes.

[ A lot of the time. ]

[ sombron's fingerprints were all over them. over nel and her fear of loss. rafal and his self-worth. alear and his desire for love. veyle and her loneliness. he has corrupted and destroyed so many of his children.

he scoffs lightly, combing his fingers through alear's hair for a moment. ]

I'll have you know I have a very sunny disposition.

Oh, really? When was the last time you even smiled without me prompting you? Your face is going to get stuck that way if you don't change expressions more often.

[ He reaches out to tip up the corners of Rafal's mouth for him, making him smile...though it really looks more like a grimace. ]

Almost got it.